Current mood:	lonely
Current music:	brand new

you are the smell before rain
hey, so yesterday i stayed home. and i watched some movies. and ordered chinese food. i had a pretty good time alone. then i got bored around 8 and my neighbor called me and asked me to go out for a wlak with him. so we went out for 2 hours around fair lawn walking around. he took me to brookdale and we chilled for a while. i came home at like 10 and then came online. i was in a bad mood by then. i yelled at my best friend over the internet and hes really upset at me. i've told him im sorry so many time. i dont think he will forgive me this time. im a bitch and i hate it. i wish i could change. and now im sitting here thinking about everything i did wrong. and i wrote a letter last night. about how much i care about this boy i freaked out on and i really love him and it hurts me. then i went to sleep crying. i was told im a needy girl. and i need attention. its true. i need to change. i've been going threw soo much. but yeah im sitting here reading the letter i wrote. and it made me wanna write an entry. and im listening to brand new-the boy who block his own shot. and its making me feel worse. but i need to let my anger out insted of holding it all inside.


byee<3