Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	tegan and sara

so last night i spent half of my night in the fair lawn police station then the paramus council court or whatever things are bad. im sick now. i didn't go to school today. im glad i have him. he helped me threw alot lately. i miss him alot its been almost 5 weeks since ive seen him. its soo sad. things are so crazy. i slept maybe 4 hours. the past two days. it sucks. i doubt im gunan go to school tomorrow. please don't comment me about what happend. i won't tell you. um yeah so i've been crying alot. and everything. i cant wait till saturday. i get to see him :D so im happy about that. but alot of stuff is going to change from now on. i really wish he was here to cuddle with me and stuff everything is so crazy i keep saying that but its true. i dont know what to do anymore. i wanna just break down and cry. i need to sleep. i need to eat. i feel like i wanna throw up. i cant breath. im constantly shaking. and i dont know weather to wipe my eyes or blow my nose. everything soo fucking retarted. ugh. someone help me, cheer me up, something? bye.