Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	across five aprils

A broken Heart is not what i wanted from this
well. today ryan came over and took me for a drive and we went and got ice cream and hung out and we sat in his car and listened to music. and he sang to me. it was soo cute. he actually made me happy. i havent been this past week. but yeah i keep thinking of this guy. so basically i feel like shit now. you made me attached to you. we spent like a month together it was only you. and i hoenstly fell for you and now i dont know what to do with myself. i think about you constantly and its really starting to get to me. i need to see you. i miss you alot. babe if you only felt this way. ....[thats for someone.] he knows who he is. so im sitting here listening to this 'song' that ryan made me download. it makes me think alot about the problem im having. :(
read it
Incomplete and total adoration
my gift to you my heart was yours
ten weeks you shaped it in one night you murdered it
torn from my chest im layed at your feet
that first step you took was the worst
since then you've walked a thousand miles
in silence short of a mark i still have these memories
but we will never see what we could have been
remember when we talked about where we would be in a one year from now
remember when u held my hand like youd never let it go
rememeber cause thats all you can do
well never make another memory
I iwsh i would have died in your amrs the last time we were together
so i wouldnt have to wait with out you today
this time i thought things were real
you said they were what happend..
you were a priority was i an option
i let you see a side i dont share with anyone
Promises are just word unless they are fufilled
And here from the beginning all i had to offer was my heart
Im sorry that wasnt enough
So we will go our own ways and
hopefully you will remember the things i told you
Hopefully youll understand that everyhting i said was in Scincerity
A broken Heart is not what i wanted from this
but i guess ive learned from this
But arent you supposed to learn from your mistakes
I dont consider this a mistake
I just wish the story didnt end this way
Cause im still in love with the person helped me write it
Remember when u held my hand Like youd never let it go
Remember when we talked about where wed be a year from now

yep i wish i could still be happy and thinking of ryan cuase i miss his smile. and he really took my mind off alot tonight. im going to bed. night everyone...