Current mood:	angry
Current music:	paramore

you never said this wasn't what you wanted, was it?
okay so since you wont listen to me i'll write what i feel in here and hope you can understand what im going threw. well i thought you were so amazing and i wanted to get to know you well. everything i did revolved around you. your the highlight of my days. and i was loving it. everytime i'd came online i'd go to you screen name first and IM you. and ask you how things were. you made me smile. ive never been upset around you. &you know that. ever since the day that i met you i felt some sort of a connection. and even you told me you did. now that we finally are close. im happy. but now that we are doing things im getting attached. and i just wanna stay friends with you. and everytime you tell me about another girl. i tell you im happy for you. even tho im really dying inside. i wanna be the girl that your with and i cant be. im selfish, i've realized. and i want your attention. the other night i thought that what happend would bring us closer. but it seemed like it was normal for you. and it ment nothing. you constantly think im lying to you. and you cant trust me. i've never been so honest. so yeah i lied a few times. but it wasnt something HUGE. what im really trying to say to you is that i really do love you and i wish it could be the way i wanted it to. but now we dont talk and it seems as if you hate me. im sorry. if you feel this way PLEASE TELL ME. i dont now what else to say to you. bye.



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